This room has always represented hope for us. Hours upon hours were spent here, prior to ever holding a baby in my arms; dreaming, praying, releasing, hoping. This room has become so much more than a nursery, it’s become a sanctuary of witnessing God’s faithfulness.
Our sweet Caleb is now seven months old. These months have flown by, but we truly have savored every stage — and imperfectly adjusted with them, too. That is probably why it has taken me until now to finally do a post on his nursery.
I took these images just a few weeks after having Caleb. It was surreal for me because this wasn’t the first time; I had photographed this room before Levi was born, too.
I remember just days after losing him, one of my sisters gently asking, “do you want us to take down your nursery?” Our families did everything they could to take away additional pain in our grieving, and in her mind, the nursery represented broken dreams that would only cause more pain. But we didn’t want to take it down because we knew in our hearts that God wasn’t finished there.
When we became pregnant with Caleb, I knew I wanted to make this room uniquely his while still honoring his big brother that will always be apart of our story. We want Caleb to know the gift he is and the way God used his life to bring redemption and hope into ours. That became the “theme” for what we made his room.
We did not change much as a whole, but instead added in touches that represent what Caleb’s life has meant to us. This print by Walter Anderson, echoing the story of Noah and the ark, reminds us of God’s faithfulness after a terrible storm and the rainbow of hope that Caleb is to our lives.
These banners have become really special to us. We used one to announce Levi’s gender and name to our friends and family, and we decided we wanted to continue that tradition with Caleb. Also hanging here is a dried arrangement of lavender, baby’s breath, and eucalyptus from Levi’s funeral that one of our precious friends thoughtfully preserved.
I absolutely adore this canopy I found on Etsy. I wanted a soft statement and anchor for the room. I also knew I wanted to use things that could be changed out easily with genders, always envisioning changing the canopy to a different color if God blesses us with a girl one day. 🙂
I found this sweet rocking horse with a couple of dear friends on an antiquing trip when pregnant with Levi! We just freshened it up with a coat of white paint when pregnant with Caleb. Many things refreshed for a new chapter in our family’s life!
This is one of my favorite corners of the nursery. I picked up this darling mobile at RH baby and child (one similar here), then later found this sheep print at Laurel Mercantile and decided to keep with the theme. It reminds me of our good Shepherd, Who is always watching over His sheep. What a comforting promise each and every time I put my baby boy down to sleep here!
A precious friend gave me this rainbow after we became pregnant with Caleb, so it now sits on the window sill of our rainbow baby’s room.
I will close this post with the reading nook, because in this little corner is where the majority of prayers took place along my journey into motherhood. Above that rocker where tears were shed, Bibles poured over, and journals written, is a print that Christian’s grandmother gave us of a little boy in the arms of Jesus. I look at it now and smile, knowing where our first born rests and the beauty that has come from his life.
It truly is incredible to be able to look into a room that has occupied pain and joy and recognize both as a gift.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.” – Psalm 23:1-6